I haven’t always shined this bright.

In fact many times of my life, my light almost went out…

I tell people often, that I didn’t know how to grow from unhindered joy, until my 30’s.

So much of my younger years were a tough ass soul school.

It wasn’t until I healed many layers, found more of myself, found the love of my life & had my babies. Discovering community and genuine connection, that most of my growth is now from a center of love.

At 45 years old, I realize that every life lesson & career I’ve had, has taught me how to be able to hold space for all your tender stories & experiences too.

In fact, my careers have always been around the nurturing of others.

From years of nursing home work, home health care and hospice, to a fulfilling & successful massage therapy practice. ( I was voted Missoula’s favorite Massage Therapist 4 years in a row, ya’ll)! Then for the last 10+ years, pursuing my greatest of roles: spiritual mentoring and soulful gatherings.

No matter what career, the common thread was connecting to people, heart to heart. Holding their pain AND their joys! People always seem to feel safe talking to me, whether a stranger at the grocery store or the waitress on date night with my hubby.

Maybe it’s because I’m an Aquarius, the water bearer, or maybe because they sense warmness with no judgement.

Meaningful connection & making someone feel heard, is my innate medicine. There have been countless times that I needed that medicine too. I didn’t always have it, and that’s totally caused me to want to be that safe space for others.

My life lessons helped birth that calling in life.

Raised by a strong, loving, brave, single Mom. Spanish & Apache, Chicana (going back to Aztec & Spanish) as she would say, had her own heavy burdens to bare. One of the things that almost broke her, was my sweet Dad who had a heart of gold, but battled with alcholism, incarceration and homelesness. A Tsmsian and Tlingit man, who was a victim of the Indian Placement Program. Colonialism & systemic racism really affected his Spirit. The trauma that generationally affects me & other Indigenous folks, to this day.

As with most people, we hold the pain of our parents. We internalize, it can wound & shape us in ways that aren’t optimal. But we can heal too & that helps future generations.

Generational trauma is no joke and has so much tremendous power. I have healed so many layers, so my daughters can live more empowered in their lives.

Counseling & mentors were a big part of that for me & there was a lot more to heal.

My childhood trauma led to abusive & toxic relationships in my teens & 20s. There were some that I compeletely lost my power & light from.

How many people did The Universe brings to me later, to hold space for, in those same shoes?

It’s wild that The Universe helps us turn these things into our medicine for others.

I’ve battled dark nights of the Soul, like so many of us, where I didn’t want to live anymore. I have survived suicide attempts and gut wrenching sobs on bathroom floors.

I have supported loved ones coping with their own broken spirit’s, manifesting as mental illness, triggering, self sabotage and addictions.

I’ve learned we all have healthy & unhealthy ways of coping.

I have made mistakes, big & small and picked myself up, countless times.

Most importantly, I’ve learned about the human process, my own resilience, each time I’ve stumbled & yet found my way.

Gathering the wisdom, the coping skills, the self love and compassion to be able to grow. To heal, to feel empowered & make better decisions next time.

I discovered countless ways I like to feed my Spirit and find inspiration, outside of organized religion. I’m an omnist now and Christianity survivor who now believes that God/Creator/The Universe will connect to us wherever we are & in countless ways.

We just have to sift through & grab on to the loving messages in the world.

Some of those old patriarchal ways can be oppressive, so we have to find the wisdom & love from each. Discard the human fucked-upness found in each & create our own sacred inner journey.

I found ways I like to express my Spirit. From painting, to dancing, singing, walks in nature, to yummy snacks & giggles & connectedness with Soul family. To being super silly & playful with my kids. There are so many things my Spirit has found it loves, in this journey!

I discovered a loving Universe, where my Ancestors, Angels and Spirit Guides help me on a daily basis. Encouraging my growth & helping me listen to my intuition and Spirit within! To notice the small signs & hunches in my day.

I’ve seen magical syncronicities and miracle happenstance that has proved there is Divine orchestration & consciousness helping us to grow.

We really are born for these times and we are here for a reason. YOU are here for a reason!

There’s a million joys and blessings that you can discover, from all your messiness.

I believe The Universe witnesses us and tenderly holds all our broken pieces. Helping to set a trajectory for us to put ourselves together again.

To trasmute our hardships into love in the world. To feel our power, to evolve our Spirit & gather wisdom, to be the leaders & lovers of our own life! To grow in this Earthly Soul School, life time after lifertime, expanding back into the Divine Being in each of us.

Oh my friend, I’d love ot share more with you!

I would love to join you in the healing space, where magical Divine growth can happen. I’ve seen it, and if you’ve come this far in reading, follow your heart & let’s connect! Thank you for reading, Muah!